Quite literally…in the blink of an eye, my baby is 1. It feels like yesterday that I walked through the door of our home holding that little one. 8lb 3oz, 21 inches or pure sugar. This experience has been so night and day from Callahan. I had a very calm and planned birth. The feeling of holding your 2nd baby for the first time is so different than the first. I was relaxed. I knew what I was doing. And…(gulp), I enjoyed Row so much more than my first baby.
Yes, I said it. I enjoyed Row as a baby much more than I did Callahan. Callahan will always hold a different, and special, place in my heart. He made me a mama. He will always be the ‘first’ for everything in our family. He is wild, hilarious, smart and I adore him to the core. But, I didn’t appreciate him when he was a baby. I had a horrible birth experience, I slipped in to postpartum depression (not for long…but I did), and he rocked my world going from 0 to 1 baby overnight. I am fiercely independent (ask my husband and parents what happens if you try to ‘tell me what to do’), and this little being was now dictating my life. I had the nursery ready, clothing washed and every baby gadget ever made–but I was so unprepared to be a mom.
Flash to 2.5 years later–I absolutely LOVE being a mom to my wild Callahan (believe me, I never would have had a 2nd if I didn’t!). But Row changed me in a different, and much sweeter way. I soaked in the newborn snuggles, late night feedings, 2039402938 diaper changes. I smell him…all.the.time. I spend 15-20 minutes in his room when I get him up from naps because he is just so cute laughing in his crib. I napped with him. I documented all of his ‘firsts’ and tried not to brand him the ‘poor 2nd child’ that gets the shaft. I made him a beautiful nursery and even bought him new clothing. I am in no hurry for him to grow up. It’s such a different feeling and he really changed me as a mother. I needed him more than I knew. My 2 boys. I love them so much it actually hurts my heart when I think about it. So different, yet so alike. They’ll never know how much they both mean to me, in such different ways.
Row Davis…I love you so much sugar nugget bubba bear, BBE. You will always be my baby! Enjoy some beautiful photos of this special time in our life from Allison Kuhn Photography. Hair and makeup by my ultimate BL Lindsey Regan Thorne.